Background: I do not remember when exactly I wrote this but this was last December only. I remember back in college where the girls of our posse would suddenly have crazy impulses, and then when we look up the sky, it was a full moon.

Moon’s fool

I am the moon’s fool.

Listening to her
When she says
“Run and catch
a star’s twinkle
on this crazy night.”

Listening to her
When she prods,
“Go and lose yourself
in my light.
Soon you you shall find.”

Listening to her
When she utters
“trust in insanity.
There is much
it can teach to thee.”

Listening to her
When she whispers
“Believe in love that’s true
Someday it will come for you.”

I am the moon’s fool.

***
Background: My family went to a restaurant opening. During the blessing we were asked to hold candles while the priest was spraying Holy Water. I was enchanted by the flame of my candle.

namumulaklak
ng dila na apoy
ang munting
kandila.

sa kanyang
kabusilakang
puso,
may luhang
pumapatak
para lang makapagbigay-
liwanag.

walang hinihintay na
kapalit.
handang ibigay
ang lahat hanggang
maubos.

ngunit
minsan
kahit gaano pa
kadakila
ang puso ng munting
kandila
hindi pa rin sapat ang
liwanag
nito
para buwagin
ang kakapalan ng
dilim
sa paligid.

10:15pm
12272003

Background: Sometimes when I watch artists play, I wonder what are they really feeling at the moment. There are times I think the audience, rather than giving the artist energy, sucks the life out of them.

kay GG

habang pinapalakpakan
ka
ng iyong mga tagapanuod
na natutuwa
sa iyong mga awitin
na walang mintis
na nasusungkit
ng matalim na kawil
ng talinhaga ng iyong nga salita
ang kanilang mga pusong
tulog (natutulog)
antok (inaantok)
hibang (nahihibang)
gising (gumigising)

lalamunan mo ay pagaw na sa pagod
na paulit-ulit na pag-awit

daliri mo ay kinakalyo
sa walang tigil na pagkalikot sa gitara

kaluluwa mo ay nalulunod sa hinagpis
na pinapaligo sa iyo ng buhay

11:34PM
12272003

kay GG uli

how they frenzy
how the feed on your soul
as your heart
grows dimmer
and dimmer
from the beating
life gives you.

background: the night at Kalinaw sa Davao was about to end, we were going to pay for our meals already. I was listening to cynthia alexander sing while looking at our messy table.

Pulutan at Inuman

tira-tirang french fries
at calamares
na nagkalat sa hapag
mga tisyu
na nilukot
matapos madampian
ang mga mamantikang labi.

mga basong
walang laman
nguinit malagkit
dahil sa natuyong
beer
iced tea
at coke

pira-pirasong
pangarap at pag-ibig
na
inilatag
inihain
ininom
nilamon
habang papalalim
na ang gabi.

1205am
12282003